I keep going back to Black Horse.
I don't know why.
Yes, I do. Because it's habit, and because Lucy said Mike might write something soon and I wanted to honor that.
But we are coming up on a month since Carmon left us and there is just the sad notice of her going and nothing more.
I notice that I am not the only one visiting her blog day after day... and I visit your blogs and your life goes on, as mine does without mention of Carmon... because what is there to say of grief to friends and readers who did not know her? And we don't know each other in many cases... so where can we go to grieve and speak of her and rejoice in having known such an incredible person?
God knows what Mike is going through, what their animals 'know'... what emotion shrouds her mountain. But I hope this will be a place where we can connect and honor Carmon.... a small touchstone where we can share what we need to and say our 'Goodbye's' together.